I'm an under-buyer, and for the most part, I dislike shopping, errands, and buying stuff.
In fact, one of my happiness-project resolutions is to "Indulge in a modest splurge." I remind myself that sometimes, it makes me happy to indulge in a modest splurge -- to buy something that I don't absolutely need, but that makes my day brighter in some way.
I indulged in a modest splurge a few days ago.
I was early for a meeting (I'm always early), so I decided to spend the time wandering around an art store. I love just looking at the things in art stores. This store, sadly, was going out of business, so prices were slashed.
As a result, the shelves were fairly bare, but I happened to notice a giant box of beautiful, high-quality, double-ended magic markers.
These particular markers hold special memories for me, because when I was in college, my roommate had twelve of these markers, and she prized them highly. She never let anyone borrow them, and we could use them only under her supervision. (Very wisely--she knew that we'd lose them, or leave the caps loose.) We had so much fun with those markers.
I looked at the price. For a box of markers, it was still expensive. At the same time, it was an extraordinary bargain. But I didn't really need the markers--we have lots of good markers already. But this was a really good set of markers. It would make me very happy to use them, and my daughters would also use them. But couldn't we use the markers we already had? Well-made tools make work a joy; having these terrific markers might boost my creativity. Looking at the markers brought back happy memories. But if we didn't make good use of the markers, I would feel guilty. Etc., etc., etc.
I bet the other customers thought I was a very odd person -- I stood stock still, gazing at the box, as these questions played out in my head, for several minutes.
At last, I remembered my resolution to "Indulge in a modest splurge." And I thought, well, I'm going to get them! I love them.
I got them home, my daughters were delighted with the markers, we all tried them out -- and my older daughter asked, "Can I take some to school tomorrow?"
First, I said "No way." I was thinking--I want to keep the set nice, I don't want to risk losing or spoiling one, I want to "save" them to keep them nice, etc.
Then I remembered #7 of my Twelve Personal Commandments. Spend out. I tend to hold things back, so I have to remind myself to spend out. Use things up! Put them into circulation, put them to work! Better to use the markers all the time, and risk losing them, than to save them on the shelf, and never use them at all. (Plus my daughter is fairly responsible.)